it’s the 4th time though…
My heart, mind, and soul.
to just get over it. I don’t even know how this topic came up in the first place from a simple conversation and a small, inconvenient comment. How can I just get over it when I see it all the time and hear it occasionally. It just doesn’t work that way. Of course I want to get over it, but I can’t. It is definitely not that simple with all the reinforcers I am around. Especially since I considered/consider her one of my best friends. That in itself took a big leap and personal strength to achieve. I’m not sure what I am trying to get at with this, maybe I just need to be left alone. I can’t grasp my feelings and I am not even sure what this is exactly about. Did I just stir up something that was not needed again? Why do I feel disrespected then? I feel under-appreciated at the same time I guess. I just want to be happy.